Thought Disorder

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

The Hanadan Fever

Guess what I've been doing during CNY!

Count visiting out.

I've been watching the Korean version of Hanadan! And also rewatching the Taiwan and Japanese version + watching the Japanese Hanadan final (Food for thought: Concluded it was real good albeit the pointless plot) because the K one has only 6 episodes available so far, which I totally maxed out during the CNY break.

I didn't exactly enjoy the KHanadan because personally I felt there were many abrupt changes between scenes that made no sense to me. But this is only a mere starting thought after watching 6 episodes. Hmm, 18 more episodes to go. That is, many many many more weeks. I really liked the eye candy though - Lee Min Ho and Kim Bum! Very awesome! Lee Min Ho completely looks and acts the role of Domyouji. Kim Bum is really cute too. But the guy who acts as Rui? He doesn't really act the role well, as compared to Oguri Shun in JHanadan. Oguri Shun was so good in portraying Rui's personality and behaviours. Mm, and I have not taken a liking to the Korean Makino, unfortunately. It puzzles me that the supposedly impecunious Korean Makino dresses like a rich person when they were holidaying in New Caledonia. The clothes were rather flamboyant, which didn't match her humble background. I hated the flower in her hair very much! But I was ay-okay with her dressing back in Korea.

Overall, I guess the Japanese version is a better catch than the Korean one. Let's hope it gets better, and that I won't give up on it halfway. Truthfully I don't think I'll give up on it because I really am a huge fan of Hanadan to the very extent that I'll rewatch the different versions occasionally. Awesome storyline!!! Oh and I believe the anticipation of the weekly episodes will help me tide over the stormy weeks and grapple with the fact that I'm really many inches closer to the big day.

276 days!

That doesn't mean I can't take a breather from mugging! But I better not stray from conscientious studying.

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Shit. I've buried the sacred task of designing Proj? shirt at the back of my head. *Rolls eyes* Crap! Really have zero creative genes right now! Although I'm accountable for the other 5 members, it doesn't mean I get to do loads of work okay! I really don't think the shirt design I'm currently picturing in my head will work out...srsly!!! I tried it out on photoshop and it proved to be a futile effort. Ahh, major stress. I'm not cut out for designing after all...

I really need to relax ;) OK?

10:36 PM

Saturday, January 24, 2009

And the countdown begins.

279 days to A Levels.

I'm sorry, did reality just hit you in the face?

Well at least I'm not feeling the heat now. Still straddling between the holiday + post-SAT mood and the inner voice that urges me to strive hard! By the way, SAT was quite horrible. Very unprepared. Very very many long sections especially the comprehension passages which I never seem to be able to digest. Man, I don't ever want to look at my scores in the future. It was a mistake, and an extreme waste of money, right from the start. Yes, please face reality people. No point taking SAT unless you have loads of money to waste on refining your SAT scores by retaking over and over again. Even if you do get into a top university, can your family fund you? Or calculate the probability of securing a scholarship. Reality bites. Yeow.

Money does make the world go round after all.

Speaking of money, I solemnly declare that I'm utterly disgusted by the actions of some people. (This entry will be continued in my heart. I will condemn such acts of extravagance and will hurl extreme criticism at them)

7:48 PM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

1. I shouldn't have registered for SATs.
2. I really need a new mattress and pillows but they must be Seahorse's.
3. I decided not to take H3 because I think I won't perform well, I wouldn't want to miss tennis and CO, and I need to spend a great deal of energy on CSC research paper.
4. I don't know if I can actualise the t-shirt design that I've formed in my mind.
5. Darn busy CNY!

9:36 PM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

There hasn't been rain these days but the winds are so chilly. I'm all decked out in my sweater at home; the nowcast presents a good 25 degrees celcius. It's great cold, but I just ate a cold tablet for the flu.

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I visited the ear doctor last Wednesday. And to my dismay, it wasn't impacted wax causing the annoying blockage. Le sigh. The doctor says my right ear is actually quite clear - surprisingly. My hearing is pretty much normal as well. So what's wrong with my irksome ear? I've absolutely no idea, and I think the doctor doesn't have a clue too. Apparently she said there may be some fluid behind my eardrum. Since the ears are connected to the throat, and the nose, she requested to do some scope test, that will look into my throat, to confirm her hypothesis. I promptly agreed.

Directing me to a seat just across, she then sprayed some weird chemical into my nostrils; they really smelt, and tasted weird. She went to get some long, weird-looking black mechanism that seemed to have a lighted tip. I thought it was for my mouth actually, like dentists' appliances? So I opened my mouth. It's actually quite normal and logical to think that you can look at your throat through your mouth? But then she said it was meant to go into my nose, and she even asked me to breathe normally when she stuck it in. It was extremely queer to have something in your nose and throat, especially when she pushed the thing further and further in; I could practically feel it at the back of my mouth.

After the testing, I think there isn't any fluid behind my eardrum because the doctor didn't explicitly tell me so, and she didn't prescribe any medication, or ask me to go for surgery. But she did mention that I could put a ventilation tube at my eardrum. And I cringed, totally. Fortunately, she didn't recommend it because there is an obvious risk to it, and I myself didn't exactly welcome that option. I assumed the repercussion was probably permanent partial deafness. Seriously, I'd rather live with my ear blockage but have normal hearing than to be partially deaf.

I was then asked to leave, but I'd have to return 6 months later for another hearing test. To confirm I'm not going deaf or anything. Hah. No medicine. Nothing removed from my ear.

So. Conclusion after 4 years of ear blockage: EAR BLOCKAGE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. Nice.

If it was just impacted wax, life would be so much easier. Unfortunately not. In the following days I'd many incidences of ear blockage eg. PE on Friday morning (fyi when I exercise in the morning I'll definitely get ear blockage hur for some unknown reason) Luckily, when I ignore it, it will go away, for another unknown reason. Ignorance is bliss, goes the saying.

Now, I think I wanna be a ear doctor next time so maybe I can find out what's wrong with my ear myself. And probably cure myself of it. Spare myself the agony man! Into the career list it goes.

I was so dejected that day after visiting the doctor that I decided to take full-day MC, pon orientation, and go home to mull over it. Actually I'd brought my orientation barang-barang along but due to the unexpected bad ending, home I went. Yes I'm hella heavy-hearted, even till today.

Oh, and school has been so bad. Even though the driving force is still excruciatingly mild right now. I feel so worn out easily.

12:15 AM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

So glad that I'll be FINALLY visiting the ear doctor tomorrow! My ear canal has been hurting repeatedly these two days, especially when the wind blows. Oh lullaby, not. Like a piercing sharp pain that comes every now and then - the pain is extremely distracting. And today, during orientation's telematch, some idiot splashed water right into my affected ear; I almost wanted to shout at the person. Darn you!! I hope you get ear blockage like me for 4 whole damn years!!

On another note, I think orientation was fun. The people in my group are awesome because they're so enthusiastic and funny! Never a moment doing nothing. We won the 31 legged race but everyone went home with (nice, visible) bruises on our thighs. My secret addiction acts up again!! Bringing glory to Kirin (ew hate the change of name for the one millionth time), and owning the other houses even if they collaborate and gang up against us is definitely our forte! K1 and Kirin pwnz your asses.

Ok but now, I've to attempt to chiong chem holiday homework because happy days are always shortlived and fun lessons begin on Thursday and WOW! I've chem tutorials on both Thursday and Friday! AWESOME!

9:02 PM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Hysterics

Dang. I've been living in total oblivion. One day away from the dang reopening of school and I've discovered that there's chem holiday homework uploaded online. And two short weeks to SATs?! I'm officially screwed up. Need to start chionging now, LIKE NOW!!! FT was the one whole snapped me out of this whole holiday trance I've been living in the past 2++++ months. Oh crap. Srsly, I need to buck up like crazy. Promise I'll go into study mode when school really reopens, that is in one day's time.

(I promise I'll finish my lunwen during the CNY holidays!)

11:11 PM

Friday, January 09, 2009

Food

I'd a totally disappointing meal yesterday. The months of craving for dim sum have not been satisfied at all. Yesterday, FT, SN and I (finally) went to eat dim sum buffet and it was a huge letdown. We agreed not to go back ever again! I think the dim sum at Geylang beats the one we ate hands-down. There was very limited variety and the food wasn't all that great. No shrimp dumplings!! ): The xiao long bao-s also fell short of my expectations. Siew mai: ditto. Not the authentic, hot and piping and juicy dim sum I was anticipating. But oh well, attracted by the price. But no good food. Let's just eat at Geylang next time. :D

Now, craving for ramen! As always. (Not Ajisen though, but the specialty stores' kind of ramen)
And also coveting cake! Cake spree on SN and my birthday!

Save money first lah.

Must. Be. Thrifty. And. Not. Buy. Crap.

ps: iPod shuffle has been certified to be dead, and repairing it will cost more than a new one. So thinking of buying a new one! But, also many other factors to consider, such as the need to funnel the money to other more useful purposes like buying a new school bag, and also the days I need to go hungry. Money makes the world go round.

11:21 PM

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Technological curse

I think I'm not a gadget person.

It was 3 years back, I think. I first got hold of the then faddish Creative zen micro. I named it Didum. It was light blue in colour, and had a 5GB storage system. It costed slightly above $400. $400 in today's era will enable you to get a newfangled iPod touch. However, after using Didum for less than half a year, disaster befell. And it was gone. Lying in my drawer in a transparent plastic ziplock now is the dusty carrion of Didum, with a quite beautiful chromatography on its screen.

Of course, I got a thrashing down from my momma.

Last year, nearing the OP period, my computer broke down due to a virus attack. The main culprit was me not downloading any relevant anti-virus softwares and not running computer scans at all. So when it finally got infected, I did a scan in a panicky state and realised that there were close to 200 infections in my computer and many many uncountable spywares. Even though my mom wasn't aware of this matter, I did get a censure from some of my friends though. It was a terrible experience.

Also last year, I left one of my Apple earphones in my shorts' pocket. And I happily soaked the shorts in a pail of water. Hours later, when it finally hit me that I left my earphones in my shorts that was submerged in water, I went to retrieve them in a flustered manner. One side of the earphones seems to be perfectly functioning, but the other side wasn't that lucky. Truthfully, I was quite angry with myself because Apple earphones are expensive and I just spoilt one with such ease.

Besides the Apple earphones, I spoilt many others like Didum's and some other music player's ones. Both split into two due to my destructive and careless nature.

And just today, I left my iPod shuffle with another pair Apple earphones in my school skirt's pocket. Then again, the very extremely brilliant me went to soak the skirt in water again! Best thing: my mom found out. She was absolutely infuriated and demanded that she confiscate my iPod touch. Thankfully, the shuffle was from my uncle, and it hadn't cost my mom money, or else she'd be even more maddened. She swore not to buy anything for me again, but I know she didn't mean it. Still, I'd only used the shuffle for a few months and it has been my best exercise companion. It's also light blue in colour, I realised. So I'll never get anything light blue ever again. NEVER EVER. The shuffle can be switched on but no music can be played. As for the earphones, it's goodbye again. The earphones belong to the old iPod actually.

I'm gonna bring my shuffle to the Apple centre tomorrow to see what they can do. (Or perhaps I should get a new one? I'd rather pay $78 for a new one than pay more to repair the spoilt shuffle) I don't have a warranty, and neither do I have a receipt. *Big fat sigh* Rain money please!! I'm gonna hunt for earphones tomorrow too.

Yeah, I'm bedeviled by some technological curse alright.

That's why I don't like buying damn good handphones because I know I'll spoil them, sooner or later. Speaking of handphone, my handphone's camera is quite screwed now. Bringing it to the centre for repair tomorrow too.

> :(

11:52 PM

Monday, January 05, 2009

Intensive packing

I devoted my entire yesterday's night, today's morning and afternoon to the unearthing of my room's anachronisms. This may be the spring-cleaning of my room for the upcoming CNY because I predict when school starts there will be a deluge of interminable work, CCAs, tuitions...

BUT.

From now on, I vow NOT to:
-Buy pens that do not have refills! When the pens are hard to dispose I become extremely miffed
-Buy crap soft toys and key chains especially those that dangle on phones they usually don't stay more than 2 weeks on my phone
-Take annoying brochures (eg. from overseas tourists' attractions), postcards, door gifts that I think I'll keep. There's always the Internet.

From now on, I vow to SAVE MONEY AND NOT SPEND MONEY. I will go to the bank tomorrow to deposit the remnants of my allowance from last week. Then I'll hide my ATM card somewhere I tend not to remember. Sigh. I hate being poor! And I really hate peer pressure because it's misleading, misleading and MISLEADING. I will not be influenced.

10:17 PM

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Felicia studied in Dunman High School, loves elmo, is a major drama addict and is a cake lover. She has quit coffee even though she loves it.